also...

fuck it.

it could just be the red wine talking. or the oppressive depression. but really.

fuck it.

since i got married i've gained like 20 to 30 pounds.

since i got married i've got about 3 extra grey hairs.

since i got married i've been happier than i've ever been.

since i got married... i've cried more than i've ever cried.

it's not really fair. in comparison.

it isn't.

i tried sleeping just now. but i can't. i'm still too pissed off about the whole thing. i have too much going on in my head.

i think i'll curl up on a couch.

alone.

so as not to wake anyone with my crying.