i can't go back and change what was. and to work on what is now, seems to be fruitless to you. because you can't see past what i let you down with before.
i don't want to give up. i don't want to go. i don't want to lose you.
it's not just the "right now" feelings.
it's the fact that i actually want to fight. i want to do more than just run. or let things run their course. i want to make the effort. and though you had longer to let these feelings simmer, while i was for some reason unawares... and you enjoy your solitude... and you don't want to put any trust in me.
i will still fight.
because the me that i am when i'm with you... is worth all the little lonely me's when i'm not.